My Dancing Feet

I rarely take my hair out of its place atop my head. Always in a knot, put there when it’s wet, it’s easy and it works.

Today it was tied as it always is, but came down during yoga and the dance that ensued.

I used to dance.

I used to rave and club and watch strobe lights turn the faces of my friends the most beautiful shades of blue and green and red; yellow, orange, and pink.

The early nineties in San Francisco were a playground for a free bird like me.

I pierced my nose, danced all night, had cocktails at the End Up for breakfast and wore platform shoes with mini skirts and knee socks. I drove around in a small white Mercedes and cut my hair as short as Mia Farrow with long whispy pieces by my ears.

Life is different today and that time of my youth is a long distant memory. In between play dates and pre-school pick-up, there’s not much opportunity to dance anymore, other than the occasional kitchen pajama party with the iPhone on full blast.

Unless I can manage to attend Carson‘s springtime fire generating vinyasa class, which I did this morning, my dancing feet don’t get much time to do their thing in the presence of people above the age of four.

The class was packed with wall to wall mats. The chatter of eager and waiting yogis was like cheerful music and I tried to record the sound with my phone, though when I played it back the energy that had felt palpable was missing. The waft of incense welcomed me and I found a spot in the center of the room.

I had a feeling there would be some dancing. Fire practices generate heat and the best way to do so is to move. The faster you move the more heat you produce. It’s not a rocket science, really.

The class itself was filled with lots of chaturangas and forward folds, utkatasanas, a few inversions, and a good bit of chanting.

The final movement was a dance called tandava kriya (Shiva’s dance).

Shifting from leg to leg to beats times two, elbow to opposite knee and back, twisting slightly at the waist to the thumping of drums, my pony started to fall.

I pulled out the elastic and my mess of a mop fell down in front of my face.

Back and forth I hopped from foot to foot, elbow to knee and so on. I closed my eyes tuning out anything but the drums. One, two, switch. Back and forth.

After a minute, my pounding heart insisted on slowing, which gave me a chance to look around. I brushed my hair out of my face and opened my eyes to find the entire space filled with dancing yoginis; heated hearts pounding together, lots of free pony tails,  tendrils falling around shoulders.

It was freedom. A moving meditation. Letting go.

For a moment on my mat the young, wild, and free twenty-something me had a chance to escape.

I recognized her underneath all that flying hair.

We were connected and time was suspended.

I didn’t realize how much that girl had been missed.

She was an awful lot of fun.

And boy could she dance!

10 thoughts on “My Dancing Feet

  1. Totally could do that especially if my booty would look like those girls! You’re uch a little hippie…and so am ! heehee ❤

  2. OMG we were separated at birth – how can 2 people who have never met have so much in common? I was a raver in the early 90s – only in the far less glamorous setting of Scotland – plus I pierced my nose using a bag of frozen peas and an earring with a point that I had my ear pierced with…the good old days – miss my hot pants and catsuit!

    1. Again… hilarious! You were hard core with the peas! I got a tiny tattoo one morning after raving all night, but I was a wimp and was curled up on the floor while getting it. Oh…those days!

      I miss them, but wouldn’t have the energy for them today. I think it’s part of the reason I sleep so early nowadays!

  3. Push that hot dog cart! I drove by the End Up when I was in SF for business, in my little buttoned up business girl suit…and I had that moment, remembering, connecting with the girl that once had to throw her shoes away when she got home because she had danced them to death. xoxox

    1. I think I remember that night when we had to toss your shoes! Those were great times. I am a little surprised we survived so relatively unscathed, though! Rave on! 🙂

  4. Great post – bring out a lot of personal memories, i’m sure you know how to dance – let the hair down 😉

  5. Oh, I never was into Ravs (a little before my time) but I did love to go to clubs when I was in my early 20s and dance, dance, dance! Haven’t done that in years and I don’t think I could pull it off anymore. Ahh, youth! Don’t you love how the beat of music can just take you away to a whole ‘nother place and time? Wish I had been there! Sounds like a blast!

  6. Sounds like a great class! I have no rhythm, but I love to dance. Anyone in my family will tell you it’s not uncommon for me to break it down in the kitchen. It just makes me feel happy!

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